I want to do something with my life. Like
really DO something. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love my job. When
you find your passion, your calling after quite a few hiccups and bumps on the
way, it is relieving to be home.
But lately I’ve noticed, that many people I know (many younger than me too, sniff) are doing stuff besides their jobs.
Like something big that they can be proud of and can talk about and tell their
grandkids. In this category, the ones who are my friends, I am uber proud of
them. The ones who are not, I am actually a little jealous and depressed. The
only thing I’ve done lately besides my job and social life, is join a yoga
class. I was and still am super kicked about it, but meh.
I’ve ALWAYS wanted to write a book. Silly,
isn’t it? All writers want to write books, duh! I mean, having a book you’ve
written published, is the ultimate. When it’s more than one, even better! It’s
like the adrenaline rush you feel when you see your byline or your name on a
masthead for the first time, ever. Inexplicable joy. A book, yes.
I have NO clue what’s holding me back
(please God, let it not be laziness). Well, partly, it’s the fact that I’m not
sure what I want to write about. It will definitely be inspired by my life and
the lives of those around me, but I need to bring it down to a definite theme,
story, idea, brief, etc. Sigh. But I promise (I think), I will at least start
making a list of possible story ideas. In the meantime, please do help! ANY
suggestions will be welcomed with open arms. You all know how bad I am with
decisions! *batting eyelashes*
Apart from this, I’ve also started getting
obsessed about buying my own, nice house in Bombay. Sounds ridiculous doesn’t
it, given the real estate rates in this town? But recently, I’ve been going to
friends’ places and having a peep into their homes, and all I want to do is buy
a house (read flat, obviously) and set it up with my marad. Yes, that's what I call him. Yes, all the
friends we’ve been visiting are married and older, but still. Slight obsession
happening. I need to get really rich, really quick. Maha sigh.
As someone once said, "We Humans, We Just Want To Tell And Hear A Good Story..."; That's what every aspect of what we do comes down to, doesn't it?
ReplyDeleteSuperflously generalizing much?
Maha sigh...
Hmm. As in I am generalising by assuming that everyone is doing something more worthwhile with their lives than me? :P Or you are, by assuming that everyone wants that story? I is confused!
ReplyDeleteNaa, that's not what i meant at all. My theory, or rather, observation, is that everything that we do, eventually becomes just another story to be shared. And sharing stories is what keeps all of us going. Be it with your 'true love', or 'friends'. Hell, its what drives Social Media, and all of media, actually.
ReplyDeleteSo ultimately, all that we set out to do, may just be an attempt to share another story. We may choose not to look at it that way, for everyone will say that they do a particular thing to 'quell their ambition', 'or because they have no choice'. But saying that in itself to anyone around you - you are just sharing a story, right?
So, am i "Superflously generalizing much?" Or am i "Even making sense"?
Maha sigh...
I couldn't agree with you more. Everyone has a story to tell. I guess it's how you tell it and why, is what makes all the difference.
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